DATZ MiZZALPHA BiTCH 2 U's blog: "mA pOeMs N mA pErSoNaL rEfLeCtIoNz"

my girl... tha fact that i hurt yooh makes me wanna hurl nuff said n dun lets give it another whirl.... hahaha im fukkin round with yooh but on real talk... now that yooh r not minez im no longer finez it hurtz 2 look at our words 2 each other n rememberin all tha good timez n no im not just tryin to feed yooh sum fake linez yes i dumped yooh baby but please reconsider bein with me please say maybe baby say n-e-thing other then tha word no but if thats what yooh wanna say ill understand n try to let yooh go i kno i have not been tha best girlfriend n i kno tha rules once its over its over but maybe this 1 time tha rules can bend im sorry n i kno i should let it be but i cant n wont i want yooh back baby please 4give me?!?!? im sorry baby!!!

i wanted to thank yooh guy sooo much for all tha good thoughts prayers n what not my bro has made it bak to camp as of 2day (1/10/07) @ 2356 iraq time welll duh im sooo happy im cry again yeee but ya thank yooh all soo much much luvez yall muahz!!!!!

ummm ya my lil brah SSGT.Johnson,Andre p has been reported M.I.A =( 2 all civilianz or unknowing peepz M.I.A= missing in action =( i never thought id hear thos letterz in my whole life specially bout my lil brah now my close friends who kno me truely know me kno im on my way to join tha military like my lil brah my lil brah is a marine he loves been a marine n now ima join him it is my goal to b there i kno deep in my heart he is still alive hahaha i just hope he lives long enuff to see me there hes been through everything hes been in fist fights there shot stabbed in explsions( he finds n detinates bombz,landmines,ieds, n what not)he is my brah he is my son hahaha i raised him we didnt have parents in out lives at least not very long when we did have em this is hard to type ive never cried this much in my life i dun kno what ima do i found out from his fellow man last night n i havent slept i havent eatin it hurtz too much haha ima stop now kuz i cant do this n-e-more =( nopez im strong i cann finish this entry right now all i can do is hope n pray that he is alright i wish i didnt have to n-e-time but i do n right now im like basically on my knees this hurtz alott i hate to say it but i hope hes lost or that he got injured what a terrible thing to think right....negitive...if ur in tha military or a wife,hubby,or fambam of a military member yooh understand then i dont kno what to do it hurtz to think that may have to bury my lil bro i dont want to damn it! i had to bury my older bro in 03 i dun wanna bury my lil 1 in 07 im sorry 4 goin on but i dun kno what else to do hahaha talkin to living peepz it doesnt help at all... all they say is aWWW its okay sweety n youll b okay n im sorry....GOD DAMN IT!!!! ITS NOT FUKKIN OKAY N UNTIL HE HITS ME UP IT WONT BE!!!!! N NO IM NOT FUKKIN OKAY IM SIKK OF THIS SHIT....EVERY TIME HE GETZ HURT OR ALMOST KILLED I GIT INFORMED IVE BEEN THROUGH IT ALL WITH HIM!!!! but... i gotta keep a strong tip haha hes tha marine but i gotta have there mentality take it all in n dont show emotionz i gotta stay strong for him and i will =) if n-e-of yooh out there who r readin this care please pray for him not me or my fam but for him please thank yooh!!!

U KNOW WHAT IM GETTIN TIRED OF ALL THIS KID SHIT MAYNE IM TRYIN TO KEEP IT MOVIN N I GOT BUSTAS BEEZYZ N SKEEBOS ON MA JOCK BLOOD SHIT IF U DONT LIKE WHAT THA FUK I SAID 2 U OR UR MAYNE OR BITCH THEN DONT FUKIN ASK BLOOD KUZ IM HELLA BLUNT I DONT GIVE A FUK IF IT HURTS U, I DONT GIVE A FUK IF IT HURTS DEM, N I COULD GIVEA FLYIN FUK IF IT MAKES YO MOMMA ROLL ROUND N ER GRAVE OR WHATEVA SHIT STOP ASKIN ME 4 MA OPINION IF U AINT GONE USE IT MAYNE OR IF U SENSITIVE I DONT BELIVE N DAT SHIT IF U IS A NIGGA U SHOULDNT HAVE FEELINS LIKE DAT YA DIG? MAYNE IM SORRY IF U CANT UNDERSTAND ME BUT UHHHHH AINT NOBODY ASK U 2 B MA FRIEND, AINT NOBODY ASK U 2 B MA FAM, N AINT NOBODY ASK U 2 B MA MAYNE SOOOO BACK THA FUK UP BLOOD UHHH IM TIRED OF THESE NIGGAS HITTIN ME UP WIT DIS SHIT DO I LOOK LIKE A FUKIN PHYCOLOGIST OR DR OR SUMTHIN KUZ U MUTHAFUKAS B ASKIN ALOT FROM A BITCH "OH AJAY" WHAT DO I DO I LIKE/LUV HER BUT SHE/HE DONT NOTICE ME OR AJAY WHAT DO I DO SHE/HE IS TRIPPIN OR AJAY WHAT WOULD U DO..... AJAY AJAY AJAY AJAY HOLY FUKIN HELL DOGG WHAT THA FUK WOULD I DO HMMMMM..............LEAVE HIM/HER THEY AINT WORTH IT... IF HE/SHE DONT NOTICE U... UHHH DEE DEEE DEEE FUKIN MOVE ON TO THA NEXT NIGGA OR BITCH OBVIOUSLY THEY DONT LIK U AS A MAYNE/FEFE OR AS A PERSON...DUH... THERE ALWAYS IS ANOTHA JEEZUZ N IF DA BITCH OR NIGGAS TRIPPIN......WELL DROP EM OR GET USE TO IT. IT DONT EVA END FUK IF U N A RELATIONSHIP SHIT AINT NEVA GONNA STOP THATS PART OF A RELATIONSHIT...I MEAN GOD DAMN DID U NIGGAS WAKE UP YESTADAY OR WAS YALL BORN YESTADAY SHIT WITH MOST OF HOMMIES I COULD SELL YALL A RATS ASSHOLE SAY ITS A RING N CUM UP GOD DAMN...OKAY.....N NOW FOR WHAT I WOULD DO.......WELL HMMMM DONT GET CAUGHT UPN DIS SHIT HAHAHAHA ALOT OF YALL WHO TALK 2 ME DIS WAY IS THA REASON Y THA FUK I AINT EVA GETTIN IN ANOTHA RELATIONSHIT FUK THAT IMA GETT ME A GOOD F/B N THATS IT FUKA RELATIONSHIT DOGG

okay so chekk it i met this nigga on here he was koo peepz till he started HITTIN on ma fukkin SISTER?!?!?! WTFUKK!?!?!Hahahaha its hillarious 2 meeh, sum of tha shit these niggas b tryin 2 pull hahaha dumbasses i mean kum on blood r yooh that fukkin stupid ma sister??? hahaha FUKK YOOH NIGGA!!!!!

okay so here it is ima wonderful match maker, ima wonderful homegirl ya ya i do tha ryde or die chikk thing but i have a heart too hahaha n it sux n now i relized it b4 but i alwayz played it off like naw i dun got 1 nomore, naw fuk men n bitches i dun need em n-e-more, when tha homies bitches cheated on em or hurt them id laugh n be like thats what yooh get for luvin sum1..... but now thats all changed...i had this thing for this guy (ya ya shut up yall i kno ima fear this 1) but chea i fell n i kinda fell hard he was amazing, amazing in bed, n life, n just out right amazing hahaha i had a smile like permenently stuk on ma face but then it came what i alwayz wait for kuz i kno its gonna happen n sumtimez even fear he still in luv with his x hahaha i hate that shit i hate it!!!!!!! FRIENDS IF YOOH R READING THIS...... please if yooh still luv ur x's or luv n-e-1 for that matter please do not go after n-e-1 else, well atleast until yooh realize that, thats over n done with or once yooh get enuff balls to tell that person ur in luv, kuz until yooh let go or say it yooh will not find that other 1 or ur next 1 or whateva yooh wanna call em n yooh will end up hurtin alotta peepz in tha meanwhile... see what most dont relize is when sum1 has ur heart they own yooh n thats it.... yooh will never b free until yooh either let them go or yooh let em kno tha only problem with luvin sum1 like that is yooh miss alot things including ur next, which in actually that next 1 yooh just past up coulda been ur wife or even husband for that matter trust me on that 1 kuz I do it all tha time infact i keep doin it hahaha and tha funny thing is i know it, n i can stop it, but i wont kuz everytime i do i get hurt just like this time n im sik of bein hurt hahaha ima leave on this note too all that r in love n they love yooh bakk whateva yooh do dont leave tha 1 yooh love for tha 1 yooh like kuz tha 1 yooh luv is tha 1 for yooh n if yooh leave sum1 will scoop em up marry em n luv em 4 yooh n the 1 yooh like will leave yooh n then yooh will just b stuk lookin like damn. to tha 1s who r like mee n ur searchin take a step bakk n look at all tha peepz in ur life kuz while yooh may b lookin, searchin n goin nutz to find luv... kuz ur 1 tru love has probably been there right n front of ur face yooh r just too blinded by tha past to relize it!!! see i told yall i can see it im just not ready to accept it...

im sooo fukkin happy yall me n ma x boyfriend met up again on new years day of all days i gave him all ma numberz he gave me all his WELL GUESSSS WHAT????...... HE FUKKIN CALLED 2NIGHT!!!!!!!! im sooo happy im sorry andre i kno yooh prob readin this thur n iraq gettin hella hyphy n pissed off but not able to comment me fukin active duty right hahaha please dont b yooh kno who dis is n its who yooh want it to b dogg its fukkin BILLY blood chea yesss im soo happy n dont worry everything will b aiight well n-e-wayz gittin bakk to tha subject he called me 2night n he was askin whats up n what im doin this weekend n he accepted my appologyz n he called me BABY N he called me fukkin BEAUTIFUL oh i missed him sooo much yooh never relize what yooh have till yooh loose it hahaha tha homie n ma x hubby used to tell me all that time that if yooh trully luv sumthin let it go if it wants to go if it kums bakk it was ment to bee if not oh well sukk it up n keep on steppin well guess where im goin with this chea i let him go 4 yrs ago he came bakk lost him 2 yrs ago again n he came bakk again hmmmm what tha fukk!!!!!! YEEEE

he is so intent on self distruction that sumtime it makes it hard for him to function 2 his real friends he is tha shit n all tha peepz n his world see it but in his mind he just dosent fit they say he is a great dude he say thank u only not 2 b rude but in his mind he only finds his flaws they run through his mind over n over again they dont stop till his soul is rubbed raw he wants to tell them his problems but he just never knows where to began so he keeps his mouth shut he knows he wont get hurt if he stays in his lil rut

I tied a yellow ribbon 4 u yesterday u r now so far far away tha days will now come n go without end and now i sit here n wait 4 u 2 come home again when u joined tha corp that warm august day i prayed 2 god 2 never let u go away a tear rolled down my cheek u wiped it away i felt so weak as i looked into ur strong eyes i alwayz knew that 1 day u'd go 2 war 2 save our lives and now tha future has come tru so as i sit here n write to u i cry alot...who woulda knew Iraq is where ur at in tha desert heat hot n sweaty wearin that big ass pak sheding blood tears n sweat alwayz on ur feet i know ur stern face never twinges n fret u NEVER complain or regret all of tha sacrifices u have made or tha time u spent makin sure that when ur big sis goes 2 bed at night that i can wake up again to see freedoms light Andre i now kno theres angels kuz god sent u 2 me thank u lil bro for luvin me n ur contry so much 2 protect us n fight 4 liberty as i sit on tha stoop n pray i look at tha yellow ribbons with a sense of pride thankin god again for tha day u came into ma life kno this lil brah them yellow ribbons wont come down till ur safe on U.S.A ground I luv yooh lil brah!!! MUAHZ!!!

honor,courage, n commitment as 1 is pride so pure n strong as stallions gracious strides support our brothers, sisters, husbands, n wives who r fightin 4 justice n freedom w/ their lives so please dont 4get tha feelin of pride n let us unite as a nation standin side x side