Biggie Bailey's blog: "My Writings"

I set and watch relationships I see the pain and sorrow involved I see the longing in the eyes of the forgotten lover, the uncaring behavior of the lover who forgets, I cry inside, I long to take the pain away, I long to make the lives complete I talk in hushed tones, I whisper, I fear for everything and the loss of nothing but everything in the making. Sorrow and Pain in her eyes, behind that is the hunger for love, the hunger for the touch, the hunger for companionship. can that hunger be quenched? Hearts aflame in passion, minds not comprehending, love speaking, fires burning Have you ever noticed when your inebriated you dont think about what your saying but you let your heart talk more then you would want it to. Why is it that when we are drunk we can say things that normally we wouldnt when we are sober why is it that your heart can speak frealy when your intoxicated, why do we hide hurt and pain and love from those who love us the most How do we learn to let our hearts speak for us, how do we say the things that matter most to the people that matter most, why is it that we want to run from our feelings and hide from our hearts. can we ever mend them? can they ever be fixed? I see where we push the ones that care the most about us away, where we know that the ones that love us are there but cant seem to let them close. we dont want to follow our hearts we are afraid of the pain involved the sorrow that could be there. One day our hearts will show us the ones we missed, the ones that loved us till they couldnt hide it anymore, but today we hurt, today we push and move them away from us, we know they care for us we know they love us. For today our pain is real you can feel it you can touch it, and tomorrow it may be better, it may be worse but we live, and we hope for brighter tomorrow's we will hide our hearts every day till the day we realize that that one person is gone, we will then set down, cry for a while and move on again, following the same pattern over and over again, we know that we lost a love that could have lasted a life time for today may your soul find your love, may your soul be completed and your hearts be mended, may you find your true love, or notice the love that someone wants to give and know that they love you and let them mend your heart

As I lay my head down on my pillow I want to turn over and see your face, Smiling back at me My heart is calling out Crying into the night My tears fall down, I turn over looking into the darkness Wishing Dreaming Softly calling your name, In the echo of the dark room I hear your voice calling back to me Whispering softly I love you I need you Forever my heart is yours. As I close my eyes once again To fall into that slumber I let my heart go to call out your name Once more to whisper to you I LOVE YOU I NEED YOU And Forever my heart will be yours.

Thunder rolls in, lightning strikes, hearts beat sliding across the couch his touch is soft tender, loving, full of hunger she stares at his eyes as the lightning flashes across his face, she is scared fearful of what is going to happen, she doesnt stop him, she returns his embrace. The thunder rolls she shudders as his touch caresses her cheek, he stops looks into her eyes the lightning flashes he sees her pleading, don't stop continue, without saying a word he continues, not rushing, setting the perfect pace, letting love flow from his fingertips, she has needed this for a long time, a lover who's passion will overrule her fears, should she stop him, is she willing to let him continue, does she trust her heart, is it lieing to her. He sees her fear, pleads to her calming her fear and igniting her desire without saying a word, the thunder rolls and lightning flashes, slowly he undresses her letting her body respond to his touch, they embrace kissing passions flowing thunder rolling, lighting flashing. her thoughts race is this right, is he my one, why when I am around him I feel special, loved, all my loneliness gone, she feels his touch on her breast, inhales as the ground shakes beneath as her passions bloom and desires rise, she lets herself go, letting the moment blossom into the loving embrace they both have been wanting needing. his pace is neither hurried nor slow, she responds to his caress, his utmost care, she flowers blooming in the light of the next strike, passions roll caresses tender and loving, time stops in the moment of pure ecstasy the thunder booms, she collapses, heart still aflame, his touch now gone, the world spinning, thunder and lighting and the sound of rain drifting off, she reaches for him but he isn't there she opens her eyes and he is nowhere to be found, she asks herself was she dreaming, was this real, her body still tingling from the experience. Was he there was she dreaming she can still feel his touch, his breath, she awakens to her bed, empty desolate as the rain eases, she turns rolling into her pillow, crying. She has dreamed of the passion the feelings, she misses him even tho she has never met him, does he exist. Can dreams come true, does that kind of love and passion truly happen all questions she asks herself, she drifts back off to slumber letting the tears of pain ease her back to sleep her heart searching again, when she is asleep she hears his voice One day my love I will find you, be patient, keep vigilant, don't ever give up on me, I will find you, and then your heart wont break anymore, I love you. Then he fades away in the drift of time and slumber.